March Break

I miss you a lot! Every time I'm away from you I feel like a part of me is missing. Yes, I realize that sounds absolutely lame and cliche but it's true! You're a big part of me baby :) I'm so lucky that I can say you're mine!! You are so patient and kind with me..I don't deserve you. I can't wait until the day we get married. I think we're going to be professional at it! Also, I'm super excited to go to Kerri and Nate's wedding together!! We both get to be pretty:) haha! You make me feel so safe and secure, like I always have a place to land. I know you won't leave me...and I've never felt that sense of security before. Thank you for loving me baby :)

No Idea What Day It Is....

So, you just got out of bed so I thought I would take this rare opportunity to write in my lovely blog. I just got back from my 6 day trip to your house!! It was so amazing! I love your family and friends. I'm so incredibly glad I went. I learned so much about you and I got to know you on a completely different level. It showed me what life would be like with you...and let me tell you, I'm excited! So now I have to try and remember everything that happened while I was there....

I was so nervous to see you at the airport! I knew it had only been a couple of weeks but I was afraid you were remembering me differently. As soon as you hugged me, all my fears were gone...then the wonderful task of meeting your parents. Guh! I thought I was going to throw up. They were so nice to me right away!...although I was a little concerned when your mom told us to keep the door open...haha I was afraid she thought I was a huge skank face....ahhhh
New Years! Once again I was SO scared to meet your friends! I had nothing to be afraid of though..they were all incredibly nice! I felt like I was an actual part of your group...I had so much fun! I'm glad I got to end 2010 with you and start 2011 with you. It's a perfect begin.
Our Lazy day :) My favorite..just you and me. Nathan and Elise's. Once again your friends are SOOOO nice!!!!

Day....23842039482309

Brock Zanrosso- Edge

SO I'm coming to your house tomorrow! I'm super excited!!! I have waited SO patiently to be in your arms..it's about freakin time ;) I'm pretty sure we're going to have our first kiss soon! lskjdlfkjsdlkj...i like you :) It's funny being here and hearing my family's opinions on our relationship. haha they have no idea...and when you come here they're all going to be so shocked..really, it's going to be funny. They've never seen me hold a boy's hand let alone be attached to one every single minute of everyday. They think I'm some prude...pffft. haha anyway...I have to finish packing!!! 20 more hours!!!

Day 10 & 11

Lee Brice- Love like Crazy

So yesterday...was weird. I had an off day..I couldn't shake the feeling that you might still leave. I don't actually think you will...i think. Today was better! Nate told me that he didn't know how you would be around other girls...I'm glad I could set him straight and actually believe what I said. I like you :P I got my letter from you today! 7 pages long! haha you say the nicest things to me! I think I'll keep you for forever. So today I finally booked my ticket! haha it was a painful experience..it's going to be so awkward. Guh. My need to be with you is greater than my awkwardness though. I want your family to like me so bad..I hope I can be myself...I'm excited to meet everyone, but more than that, I'm excited to be in your arms again :) Love you...i dont know how many days...19 are left?...haha

Day 8 & 9

Taylor Swift- White Horse

So...I missed yesterday. I fell asleep talking to you...but today..you hurt me. You went to someone's home to watch a movie with Caroline there. It wouldn't have been that big of a deal...but you didn't tell me, and you weren't going to. It's already hard being this far away from you, but when you do things like that it breaks me. I guess you don't really know how I feel..and maybe that's my fault. Most days I don't feel like I should have you. You're on a completely different level than me..and then you treat me like that. You said things like "You're too good for me" and "I can't keep hurting you"...my heart actually stopped. I felt sick. I thought you were preparing me for your exit. I find myself asking the question.."would I rather be single, and know my heart is safe? Or be with you and trust you with my fragile heart..." I'm still trying to figure out the answer. 21 more days...

Day 7

David Archuleta- Something bout' Love

So it's been a week today since I said goodbye to you...haha it feels like a lifetime ago. I can't wait to see you! I didn't get to talk to you a lot today. You had your chili dinner with the church. Every time my phone vibrated I hoped it was you. It took every ounce of my strength not to text you! I knew you'd gladly talk to me through the entire thing, but I can't let you lose your world. Want a truth? I spend most of my days thinking about you holding me...and you kissing me for the first time. I'm so glad I waited for you. You always tell me I'm amazing, and I'm perfect..you've got it wrong. You're the one that's amazing. You make ME want to be better. I'm constantly checking myself because I'm afraid you're going to see a red flag in me. Forever with you, now that's a fairytale. You+Me+a cave= wonderful. Oh, and today you told me we're going to Niagara Falls for new years! I'm so excited....but not because we're going there..but because I'm going to spend it with you:) 23 more days....

Day 6

Goo Goo Dolls- Stay With You

Baby, I love you:) Ahh first time I actually said it...haha and it was online..perfect :P I know now that it's not infatuation..and it's not superficial. You've quickly become one of the most important people in my life. I'm not afraid of losing you, or leaving. We're going to be together forever...I know it. You make jokes about marrying me...secretly I wish they were true. I'm so lucky you found me. Who would have thought I'd end up with someone as beautiful as you, and I'm not just talking about the outside. I can't wait until I'm with you again :) 24 more days...